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The crying never ends, the pain doesn't stops & the healing never started.

But life moves on....

It only takes a simple gesture to make one happy.

It's the heart.

By feeling it from your heart.

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Healing

Maybe it just takes a few more days of crying.

And it will be healed.

strength

It's getting harder and harder..
I'm still trying really hard.
Diversification is important.

I just wanna be happier..
Why is this so hard?
I need strength.

Am still gonna hold on no matter how hard it gets..

Fear.

Courage is the absence of fear.
I will always remember this.
I must be overcome it!

I sat in the shower for an hour.
I kept thinking and thinking....

If only life was much simplier..
Maybe it wouldn't hurt so much.
I just wanted to be happy............

Exhausted.

I need to be alone.
Away from everything..
I feel.............

The pain never ends.

Hold it, Eileen. Hold it.

YOU CAN DO IT!

Keep it up.

& keep your spirits up.

:)

I fking hate this feeling la.

I feel like some stupid fool.

Hmph.

Hate it hate it hate it to the max!

Why don't you ever knowwwwwww? :(((((((((((

Yeah, i can only blame myself for being like that.

Damn.

Stupid fool, can you stop crying?????!!!!???

True feelings.

Feeling kinda upset and all earlier on today.

But I guess I'm feeling all better now.

Baby said something to me today.

It kinda upset me too.

Sometimes, it's hard to control feelings, isn't it?

I guess I am really an emotional person.

I just can't help it at times.

Trying to change the way I am.

Sometimes I do know why am I feeling this way.

But somehow I refused to face it but ran away from it instead.

I hate myself being this way.

I really do.

It makes me feel like I can't be myself.

It makes me feel like I'm trying to hide my real self.

Sometimes, i really admire people who can do whatever they want without worrying about anything.

Maybe i should start working on that.

Time for bed now.

Goodnight people! :D

Emptiness

Taking some time off to do a little posting..

School has been stressing me out BIG TIME.
And this is just the beginning :(
I still have a longgggggg way to go.
Wonder if i can cope with eveything.
I have lost the motivation i had back in ITE.
I have lost the confidence i had.
And all the things happening around is driving me mad :'((


I feel so lost & empty.

LMS class for the whole afternoon.
Meaning I don't get to see TT21 peeps.
But I'm still glad to be in the same LMS class as wanqing, kai zhin and ding hao! :D

Side-track a little.
I must say TT21 is an awesome class with ultra awesome people!
Love them ttm!
The most bonded class ever, haha!


Back to topic.
Class ended, i went to look for baby :)
Met Mr Peanut at Our Space, haha.
Requested him to tell baby what BA Envoys is all about :)
Thanks to him!
Baby signed up for BA Envoys with me! Awesome ttm!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD
I'm so happy luh.
Met Charlie at the booth. Funny!
I told him I was the one who cried so hard during night walk :/
And he remembered! Hahaha!
He said he was the one who scare me -.-


Back to Our Space@72.
Helped baby with his MAEC tutorial work :)
Walked him to the Grand Stand for his canoe training after that.
How nice I am :) Hehe.
Went home after that.
Bus stop was packed with peopleeeeeeeeeee!
Thanks to the weather :(
Luckily I managed to get a seat on bus, took a short nap.
Damn tired.

Lesson at 9am later!
I so need to sleep nowwwwwwwww~
Shall update again.
I think my blog is such a bore!
Wanna change it sooooooooooooooon :)
Goodnight!



XOXO, EILEEN ♥